The world and My life would be in a mess

Hello my dear friend,

Today, as I sit here and plan to write a few lines to you, I can see that I have multiple things awaiting me downstairs and upstairs. Where shall I begin?

Yesterday is what the world around us calls Christmas. I’m mistaken; this is what the Roman Catholic calls Christ’s Mass. And so I begin.

My wife is waiting at the door and she has a friend who plans to come thing morning. I will probably run away or hide for it is too much for me. My wife (Monica) has other plans. It is now later and I shall pick it up from here.

It is now nearly noon and is sunny outside. But it is cold, very cold. When I walked early this morning it was even colder and most walkers didn’t go out at all. But I made it home okay. Then took a shower and bedroom work and also breakfast. Much to do.

I didn’t eat tonight. It was too late and now it is time for bed. Moni, my wife is speaking to her friend. Much is happing. It is beyond me. All this is intact and what is in this room, my office. I have an old computer before me, the one that I am typing on at present, but it is perhaps 19 or 20 years old. It still works and I plan to use it until I can’t anymore. Things are wearing out and they say that I need to update it. But how? I don’t know anymore.

Things are laying around but I don’t know how to update them now. So I guess I will just leave it all and commit it to God who does all things well.

I do walk for several miles every morning, but it is cold these days. When I go out at 7 AM it is perhaps 24-36 degrees and I just bundle up and walk. And walk more. The ducks and geese are out too.

At this point, I could weep and lament, but what good would this be? I could cry out, cry out aloud, but it is all gone. I can do thing else. At my age, I can’t begin again. I am no longer a teen, or in my 20s, and it seems that I am gone. My life is gone. I can’t back up the clock further. I can’t tear off the calendar and live in the past. No, it is gone and I don’t know how long I will be around. Maybe for years to come. Maybe it is the end. But then what?

At this point, I would like to turn back the calendar and add 20 or more years go my life. But how? And I could wish that I had the money that I had ten or more years ago but how? It just seems too much and too late and it is beyond me.

It is good that there is a God in heaven and He knows what the present and future is. Although the world and everything in it is a mess at present and we wonder how it will all end and where it will lead, we know that God has His plans and they are always good. So whatever the future holds and whatever may happen, let us look to the great designer and trust that He will always do what is right.