Seeking God

My Life through the Years

Part 28

As we come to this present time of my life, let’s recap. I was now about 65 years of age (and I wonder where all of the time has swiftly gone!). The leg problem has been solved and in a week or two I plan to have the varicose vein problem treated. I look forward to this! (Update: It seems to have worked!)

Ten years ago we were able to move into another house. We had been living in a small apartment in Richland Hills, Texas, but it was “stuffed” with our computers, books, literature, cassettes, and much more. Then it happened! Moni was able to discover a means of obtaining a used house at great discount—actually as a “foreclosed” house. It was especially for public servants such as teachers, police, or firefighters. They called it “The Good News Program.”

We applied for the house and there were eleven applicants. Of all these, they chose us! (I might add here that when she flew to America, of all the people who applied for this “diversity visa,” Moni was able to get one of those visas. This was only one person per 200 people! God was breaking down barriers to have Moni arrive!

Thus, were able to get a large house only 20 years old (now) but at only 10 years (ten years ago) with lower monthly payments.  As you know, I never earned much at all during my earning years so this helped us greatly. Sadly, right now we have discovered that many things are wrong—air conditioning, water damage, foundation repairs, and much, much more. By God’s grace, we are doing this project of repairs at present. When we were able to obtain this house through a lottery, But I had to do some work.

Some years ago I had met a teacher at the Junior College who was teaching various classes. And he (Earl) also had a friend whom we employed to work on the house, inside and outside. Plus, I painted almost the entire inside two coats. Holes were repaired. We owe so much to Earl and his expert advice! We feel the same about Eric. (By the way, sadly, Earl died with a heart condition—or was it a lung condition—only several years ago!)

Thus far, I have not been able to find the solution to the lack of fellowship. There must be earnest-hearted, devoted, and loving disciples “out there” who are either saved or want to be saved. Or perhaps they are searchers who want to know God’s will and are willing to surrender to this will, by God’s grace. But where are they? After ten years in this house, I surely thought that there would be many visitors and even many converts to Christ! Also, when we moved into this house, I was convinced that there would be many “home-schoolers” in the vicinity with whom I could share hundreds of books. But none. This makes me wonder what is wrong and what can be done!

On another note, at present, there are over 1,000 visiters (sometimes 1,400)  to my website per day, but this sort of “traffic” on the site doesn’t seem to locate or reach out to these honest-hearted (Luke 8:15) men and women who want to be forgiven by God and know Him. It is one thing for people to seek and find something on the internet and there seems to be something else involved in reaching those people in America (as well as other leading countries—such as Nigeria, the Philippines, India, Mexico, England, South Korea, or other leading nations). (By the way, the website’s URL is: www.Truediscipleship.com.)

We do know some scattered people within a hundred miles of these ones. Most are presently part of denominations—but how can they be reached by the grace of God and how can they choose to walk the “narrow way” (Matthew 7:13-14) of true discipleship, without sectarian affiliation? How can we find believers who are willing to turn from this denominationalism, or how can they choose to renounce the secular schooling that tens of millions of children are involved with in America, or how can they turn from the worldliness that is so rampant today? This is something that we seek to discover for it would help us to find these sincere people.

Many years ago, during my reach-outs to home school people, I wrote a tract entitled, “Home Schoolers: The Searching Hearts.” Whether they are home educators or others, there surely must be people who know that they are separated from God but who are willing to lay aside their sectarian relationships and launch out to something new, bold, and true! Even those who are from “home school” families, don’t always manifest a whole-hearted interest in the Lord and His will.

One pertinent issue that concerns me is this: Are there any “out there” who will lay down their lives and devote themselves completely to God? Besides the willingness to teach their children at home, the willingness to sell their oversized but expensive houses, their willingness to bear many children if God provides, their willingness for the mother to stay at home and the father to find godly and Christian work, their willingness to face criticism by their family and friends, and their willingness to surrender their lives to God through Christ! We don’t want to be more “devoted” than God is—yet we do want to be whatever Christ Jesus wants them (and us) to be!

This brings our account to the present time. It is not a pleasant situation and I still seek answers! It is late—far too late—to carry out what I always wanted at age 20. Although I may not know the full answers, it is far beyond what I could want and wish.

Since the years when I moved away from home, so much has transpired. By God’s grace, I’ve lived in various states, had many jobs, went to a number of schools, converted a couple dozen people (who have fallen away), read and studied many books, written many books and a couple hundred pieces of literature, learned of dozens of churches, and…….. But where are the people? Where are the men and women, boys and girls, and children who are living in truth, in righteousness, and love? This is what I want! But where are they?

As we come to the end of our little journey, we have covered a lot of territory. God was working. God was having His way. God was tearing down “strongholds” (2 Corinthians 11:4-5). He was helping us, caring for us, and leading us. We must seek His will and accomplish great things for His will. I’m grateful for His protection over the years, And His guidance. If I were 20 again, would I do any differently? I don’t know but I can be grateful for His work in the years that He did give to me. May He be praised!

Over the years, I’ve sung again and again a song that says so much. Notice these lyrics:

God’s Way

I want God’s way to be my way

As I travel here below.

For there is no other highway

That a child of God should go.

Though the road be dark and rough,

If He leads me—this enough. I want God’s way to be my way

Everyday!

 

I want God’s truth to be my guide

As I seek the Father’s way,

For no other message given’Can be worthy to obey.

Though He gives to us a cross

And He brings a weighty loss,

I will follow God’s own perfect way

Each day.

This says so much! And it says the truth that touches the heart!

And another, shorter one, says much also:

God is moving us on

God is moving us on,

He is showing the way—

The way that we’ve never been before.

There are mountains to climb,

There are valleys to cross,

And before us He has set an open door.

Let us “move on” and may God “show the way”! Let us climb the mountain, let us cross the valley, and let us look for the “open door”!

May God help us. Perhaps the lofty “dream” I have had for all of these years will never come to pass; I don’t know. Maybe you who are reading these lines have also had such dreams and perhaps you can help to fulfill these dreams. May He help us (you and me) to fulfill this “dream” by His mercy, love, and power! He can do it. Are we ready?